The First Day of the Rest of My Life

Thursday, January 30, 2003

So this day got better in a hurry.

Started off with me opening at Best Buy (bad). Then I got my schedule for next week; my last day is Wednesday. (decent) Then I got off work. (okay) Then the doorbell rang, the mailman had a special delivery for me.

Back in July of 1996, I started on a long, arduous journey for this delivery. 12 semesters, over 120 credit hours, five roommates, and numerous crushes later, I've got it.

I got my degree from the University of Texas at Austin.

I tell you, I was almost Tigger-like in all the jumping around I did when I got it. Now I realize that all the stress, worry, anxiety, panic (as well as some effort) was worth it. I'll more than likely do some celebrating tonight. (Hell, I may even give my friend John a call.) Thank goodness I don't go in tomorrow until 5:30 or so.

In my "Junk Mail" folder...

"ELIMINATE SPAM!! 30 day free trial"

This whole Internet thing really bugs me sometimes.

Monday, January 27, 2003

I almost did something REAL stupid tonight.

I talked with Suzanne tonight on the phone. (No, that's not it in itself, but stay with me on this...)
We'd been talking about a few things. Work, marriage, etc. And we'd gotten to talk about sex. She just recently purchased her first toy, thanks in part to me sending her this link. Well, that got us to talking about other things sexual (exploring our own sexuality, the thought of being too sexual, etc.), and that was when I almost did something.

I came thisclose to telling her about my sexual episodes since we last broke up. Now, I haven't been in that many "grown-up" relationships to know for sure, but I'm certain that doing this could only cause pain for me. Why I wanted to do that, I'm still not sure. I've been on a little bit of a self-discovery roll the last couple of nights, somehow I thought that this would aid my "healing." I mean, it seems like other people are able to talk about sex openly enough. Then again, if I was totally truthful with Suzanne about just who I've had sex with in these past few months, I'm sure there'd be no end to the slapping.

Any ideas? Advice? Verbal escape routes? PLEASE let me know....

Thursday, January 23, 2003

I need to blog about this.

Ever have one of those friends that gush SO much about someone that it just becomes uncomfortable after a while? Well, meet Kristi. I've been reading her blog for a while (always love the Longhorn bloggers). Anyway, I just had to laugh seeing this post of hers. Check out her man's website (the first "this").

All I can say is if your man gives his computers and pets top billing over you, maybe not all is well.... ;)

Wednesday, January 22, 2003

An online acquaintance surprised me today. I've been talking with her for a few months, and she just told me today that she has a boyfriend. She's been with him for three years. I'd post the chat in which this was revealed, but I forgot to enable archiving on the version of Yahoo Messenger I used. Now, I'll admit it, she's hella cute. And pretty cool, from what I've gathered during our chats. But now I feel all guilty for even trying to be flirtatious with her. Yeah, yeah, we'd never met IRL, but I always wondered what would happen if we did. I had given her many promises to go see plays of hers and stuff, but it never happened. I doubt she would have left this guy for me or anything. Alas, another one gets away...

So it seems Teri is really bummed/confused/etc. about something. I tried to help in an AIM chat the other day, but to no avail. It's funny, I seem to categorize the health of my friendships/relationships with others by how much I can do or have done for them. Friendly advice. Paying for lunch. Giving a ride. (In both senses of the term...*rimshot sfx*)

But with her.... I don't know. I mean, she's given me words of wisdom about certain things. But when I try to reciprocate, I come up short. (Granted, she wasn't exactly very chatty that day, and I didn't want to piss her off by prying.) I guess I'm too caught up in the whole "opposites becoming friends" thing. A hardcore Catholic-virgin-intellectual hanging out with... well, me. But I'll be damned if I don't go down without a fight.

Anyway, the caffiene is wearing thin, so I must go. Hopefully more tomorrow/later today. But you know how I can be with such promises...

Sunday, January 19, 2003

Yeah, yeah, another long drought of posts. I'm starting to wonder whether this whole experiment in writing is even worth it. (Then again, seeing as how not many people beg me for updates, I guess I'm the only one that's really upset about all that...)

So I went to Detroit a week and a half ago to see Amy. It was real fun. We wined, we dined, we.... well, that's none of your business. ;) Seriously, it was a real fun trip. The only two downers of the trip were:
-Not being able to do a tour of Joe Louis Arena.
-Not being able to go to Canada because I didn't bring a passport/birth certificate.

But it was still great. Amy took me to see her club meeting, and to her hometown as well. I know she'd love to have me back, although I'll definitely think twice about going up there during winter.

Seeing as how I have to be at work in 21 minutes, some quick mentions:
-Went to Austin for New Year's, partied with old friends. Saw UT finally win in the Cotton Bowl. Although, I must say, how apropos (sp?) was it that Simms' final collegiate pass attempt was an interception?
-The UT job didn't turn out like I wanted it to, they decided on another candidate. I found this out right as I got in my car to head to work. I'll tell you, THAT made life grand...

More tonight, I promise.