The First Day of the Rest of My Life

Sunday, January 27, 2008

I e-mailed her today.

I thought about her during a men's retreat I attended with my church this weekend. (An ACTS retreat, if you're familiar with the term.) I thought about the crap I put her through when we were dating, and I decided that I needed to apologize. I also needed to forgive myself for all of that, which I think I accomplished.

When I got back home this afternoon, I typed up a quick message totalling about twelve lines. I didn't really know what to expect, or what might come from it. May have been it a bit selfish on my part, but I just wanted to get it off my chest.

A few minutes later, I checked my inbox, and saw one new message. The subject? "Delivery Status Notification (Failure)." Honestly, I think I'm okay with it. I doubt tracking her down will do much good. Maybe if I run into her again, I'll tell her about it. But maybe just me putting it down on cyber-paper is good enough.

About the weekend itself, it was awesome. I ended up being one of only two guys there who didn't have a wife and kids (the other guy being a seminarian). But I think I know what to do, and what not to do, if I ever get there. I can say this: I will try my best to be a better son, a better friend, a better Catholic, and a better man.


Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Facebook Ettiquette Question:

Okay, say I just happened to find out that I gal I had quite the crush on during college is on Facebook. And say that she happens to be in my town, as luck would have it. And say that the last time I talked to her was on graduation day, 5 1/2 years ago.

A) Should I friend her?
B) If so, how should I go about it?

EDIT: After a couple of days, she accepted my friending. Now I have to worry about the messages...

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Monday, January 21, 2008

Copied from Pico's LJ, in an attempt to get me blogging about something other than my state of mind...

Because we never really know each other as well as we think, in response to this post I'd like you to ask a question. Anything about which you are curious, anything you feel you ought to know about me. Silly, serious, personal, fannish. Ask away. Then copy this to your own journal, and see what people don't know about you.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Okay, a status report...

This time around hasn't been as bad as it was before. I've been able to keep it (somewhat) together at work. I've found a strategy for dealing with it (staying busy with whatever activity I can find). My appetite has been good. (Might have been nice to lose 10 pounds like last time...)

This has been going for about a couple of weeks or so, but it came to a head Sunday night. The hustle and bustle of a Monday seemed to help when I was at work. Afterwards, I went with a friend to see the Spurs beat the Sixers. I didn't really tell her anything about what was going on; my only show of emotion came during a halftime ceremony honoring the team's original owner.

Tuesday, I woke up late. Be it from lack of sleep after the game, or lack of sleep due to anxiety, I was tempted to call in sick. But after not working the last three Tuesdays (due to holidays or "illness"), I figured I needed to go in. I ended up going in about 90 minutes late. The nice thing about my new job is that so long as I log 40 hours, I'm good. The night brought a planning meeting for the lecture series. A couple of girls ended up missing the meeting, but called me later to see if I wanted to meet up for a drink. For some reason, I agreed. I got to the bar, but ended up leaving after waiting for what seemed like an eternity. I called them, said I wasn't feeling well, and came back home, falling asleep on my couch with the TV on, needing some sort of distraction as I dozed off.

Wednesday, I decided to break bread with people I hadn't dined with in a while: my family. My grandmother recently took up residence in my old room, so it was a party of four that sat down to turkey spaghetti. (Our family's version of "comfort food.") After my grandma retired to her room, I told my folks about what was going on. Last time, I ended up staying with them for a little while in order for me to avoid dealing with an empty apartment. This time, my dad offered a plan of action. Get an appointment with my doctor for some meds, get in to see a therapist, and start exercising. He even offered to join me in the exercise. I declined that, but at least got contact numbers in order to make phone calls the next day.

The next day, I ended up making only one call, finding out my doctor was booked until the week after next. That night, I found another outlet with which to distract myself: the Texas Exes. An alumni meeting was going on at one of downtown's finer hipster bars, so I decided to check it out. I met some decent people, found out about opportunities to improve my softball skills, and met a nice lawyer. (Yes, they do exist.)

Tonight? Me, myself and I. The return of Best Week Ever has helped, and I plan to revisit some favorites in my DVD library. The main goal for me now is to keep myself busy for the next ten days or so. (Did I mention the men's church retreat I'm going on next weekend?)

A week and a half until I can taste meds again, I guess...


Monday, January 14, 2008

I think it's happening again...

Over the last couple of weeks, I've been having episodes as night. Nothing too sever, but enough to where I couldn't really sleep. Tonight, between being myself for most of the weekend, thinking about what someone said about the Aztec calendar ending in four years, and watching the Toyota commercial with the alien ship blowing up Earth, I'm in a bit of a worrying spell about death/the end of the world. I know it doesn't really make sense when I type it out, but I guess that's why it's call mental ILLNESS.

I was planning to hit the gym tomorrow. Now, I think I'll be looking for a counselor...

Prayers would be appreciated...


Sunday, January 13, 2008

After reading this on my buddy's sports blog, I'm kinda bummed Bill Richardson's hat is no longer in the ring.


Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Two nuggets of wisdom from my blogroll to share with you. One from Sandra, one from Raelyn.

Some food for thought (pardon the pun).

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Monday, January 07, 2008

Earlier this morning, while attempting my second set of iso-shoulder pulldowns, the White Stripes were playing on my iPod. "Little Acorns" was the song that began to play as I began the set, and I ended up getting through it pretty well. Between Jack's vocal encouragement, and Meg's sexual methods, they've helped me out quite a bit over the last few months.

Operation "Get Girls to Notice Greg" has begun with some more frequent visits to the gym. I was so eager to start today, that I got there 15 minutes before the place opened up. Hopefully, I can string a few consecutive workouts together (and throw in a more nutritious diet) to show better results than in the past.

I've actually been considering switching gyms. Bally's, where I go now, is about 20 minutes away (with no traffic), not too convenient for me. There's a couple of gyms within a 5 minute drive, but both have somewhat pricey dues, compared to the $14.90 I'd be paying if I renew with Bally in a month or so. Gold's seems nice, a chain called Spectrum is nice, but more expensive. Even the YMCA is $50/mo. plus a $99 signup fee.

Anyone out there have any suggestions of which gym to hit/avoid?


Tuesday, January 01, 2008


Okay, so I've told a few friends about my plan, but I figured it's high time I share this with all my blog friends now that 2008 is finally upon us.

I turn 30 this May, and I want everyone I know to celebrate with me. Even people I only know through e-mails and comments. This will be one of those "destination celebrations" that seem to be so popular nowadays. The venue? Vegas, of course!

My actual birthday falls on a Wednesday, but my family and I are planning to head to Nevada the day after, and head home on Sunday. We've not yet nailed down specifics as far as hotels, activities, etc, but I know that I want to do this trip in style. I've added a nice reminder to the sidebar to keep everyone updated. Further details as they become available.

Start saving your pennies...